NUMNIM LOVES

2011-08-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

2011-05-02T01:57:00.002+08:00

I just wanna make me feel better whenever i dress up.

Is that even wrong?

Me being friendly is always mistaken to be being flirty .

Why am i always crying over issues like this?

Why are we always quarrel over issues like this?

2011-03-30T02:06:00.003+08:00

When i thought i was gonna have fakes friends around me,

They were the people who stood by me .

When im in trouble they were there to help me pick up those pieces.

Though i may not always be there, not always contacting that doesnt mean ive forgotten bout them . In fact im happy for them because they are happy now .

5 years with Natalie and 10 odd years with Tan Supeng , how can i say gone means gone..

The fun we had together

The relaxing time we shared together

The interesting moments we had
The entertaining time we spent
The never ending friendship that we'll have
The days we'll never forget..

They never stop listening to all my troubles
They advise and sympathy helped me move on
They made me forget the pain that crushed my heart
They were my pain relief

Now after all this
I have learnt so much from life
And I want the world to know
How lucky I am
T0 have a friend like them .

And My HoneyBitch And my Tan supeng!

Thank you for everything you've done .

I may be busy but for a reason im busy for a reason .

But still you guys are not forgotten.

I still miss you and i still love you guyssssssss.

I promise i'll find a date to meet you guys up . :D

2011-03-20T02:01:00.000+08:00

2011-03-03T09:47:00.002+08:00

I cried i dont know why.

I miss my Carefree days
Hanging out with friends
Riding bicycle, playing volleyball at sentosa,
Slacking at Mc in the middle of the night.
Having sleepover at girlfriends place.

I miss..
A heart that was free to love and quick to forgive.
A spirit that dared to dream and believe the impossible.
A mind that was not afraid to explore the unknown.

I always say friends come and go,

And i learnt to accept the reality of lifes.

And im trying to accept this cruel truth.

2011-02-08T17:06:00.000+08:00

Im Back! heeh

Ive been missing i know .

Im kinda sick of blogging bout my life .

So yupp .

Bye!

2010-10-31T03:39:00.004+08:00

Many things changed.
Many friends who i thought were friends turn out to be fucker in life .

But fucked that i cant be bother such a waste of time . :D

Im living my life the way i wanted it to be .

Some slut can just stop pretending to be nice when the actual fact they are not.

You just envy the attention i got .

And i got that by not being a FLIRT.

I got that because of who i am .

My mom taught me whatever things you do . Whatever decision you make makes sure its sincere that way everything will be fine.

And im proud to say "MY MOM BROUGHT ME UP WELL"

My conscience are clear.

I once had to many dilemma.

But now ive got my decision.

Ive made up my mind and i hope i wont regret.

2010-10-14T10:46:00.001+08:00

I keep on running, keep on running
and nothing works
I can’t get away from you
no, I keep on ducking keep on thucking your nothing else
I can’t stop missing you

It’s like you're my new nightmare
you're aint escaping
it makes me feel a bit complete
knowing someone you love don’t feel the same about you
memories i'll soon delete

2010-10-13T15:24:00.002+08:00

I'll just try harder.

2010-10-08T20:27:00.000+08:00

2010-10-07T01:46:00.002+08:00

I've done my last confession cause i was feeling vexed if i didnt' tell him how i really feel .
And im glad i feel so much better .
I dont know when will this feeling end.....

They said when you find love
you'd better hold on
You gotta keep it
close to you
but you gotta give love
if you gonna get love
and you will know when
love's found you

2010-10-04T00:08:00.001+08:00

2010-10-03T21:39:00.002+08:00

I don't need that boy by my side
I don't need that boy in my life
I don't want to talk it out

I don't want to say he's my kind
I don't want to say that he's mine
I don't want to tell him that .. that ..

tell myself I'm feeling well
but I know I'm such a fool
I'll just take it as a new beginning
but you know I don't feel that way..

2010-10-03T21:03:00.002+08:00

I realise everything was just a dream.
But i took it as real hopefully real reality kick in.
Sound confusing? Its alright .

Been working straight saturday sunday with Faiz and Asyraf .
Sick of them? Not really .

I was pale but i kept on going.
I was near death i kept on pushing .
I kept on trying cause i knew this not gonna bring me down .

I was thinking bout him .
Thinking bout wad was goin to happened.
Wishing tat i could rewind the time and shut my mouth up .

He doesnt show he care but somehow deep down he really care.
Tats wad me feel lot better .

Got something to tell me?
Please do tell me .

My cousin said: If you really like him, you should persevere.
Don't later in years to come, you regretted for not doing anything.
So my dear cousin, don't be too disheartened and discourage.
If he is worth the chase, go for it.
At least you know you had try your best to win his heart.

Smile k. A pretty girl like you don't look pretty when you're sad. =))

2010-10-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

I decided to go for a check up since my Mom wanna go see the doctor .
Ive been having cramps and pain near my rib cage and heart area .
So finally a check up!

Told doctor my problem and his was pressing my stomach to see if i had any pain which obviously i had . Doctor face change like so serious and ask my Mom to bring me to the hospital for further check up . I was scared he said maybe its Acute Appendicitis .
So went to yishun hospital had my Blood tested,Urine tested and X-ray.
Dad rush down from work . I was scared .

After everything doctor told me its not really serious for now and ask me come back for check up again with the specialist at the end of the month . Yupp so under medication . Fuck tat . :D

2010-10-01T01:56:00.001+08:00

2010-10-01T01:52:00.003+08:00

2010-09-30T02:48:00.003+08:00

Trust me i can sit infront of the com and post whole day bout shits im feeling .

But the moment my finger touch the keyboard i just cant

seem to write it . Currently can i say im done being good with ppl cause it dont do me any good but just making them step on me even more . Like _l_ .

I should have learn my lesson but tell the truth i learn not a single shit from all my past experience . Im gullible trust me too gullible naive.

I trust ppl easily mostly WRONG ppl which is like _l_.

I dont get why i give in so easily .

I dont get why i easily soft hearted ,

I dont get why i must bear with all this shit.

I dont get why i trust ppl so easily.

It does not do me any good but harm .

I added problem to my tiny brains and make them bear so much burden when i can easily block and delete . I cling on to the past yes i do . I still think of my ex and my part time .

Im always thinking and searching for answer on where why how did it go wrong .
Be it rejection be it break ups . Ive gone through it all yet i learn nothing from it .

Im persistent im stubborn im egolistic .
I do not like forcing ppl yes i dont .

DONT ASSUME YOU KNOW ME BUT TELL THE TRUTH YOU DONT!

To tat someone: If you're trying to not make me like you by giving all those attitude which you may thing you didnt but the actual fact is i personally feel youre doin so glad to say you did it!

I waited for you online whole day for the sake of wanting to talk to you but i was disappointed . If i said im not pissed im lying i am pissed but i cant be bother . I tried not to be bother but whatever makes you happy . Im just stupid to have trusted your word .

Back to posting shit .....

Im getting sick and tired on guys wanting to learn bout me more .

Im sick of hearing guys telling me they like me when they dont even know me .

I sick of random guys telling me to text them when im awake or asking me or hinting me to pay more attention on them . Im tired of guys trying to seek attetion from me .

I hate guys to keep on texting me whenever i dont reply them . Im sick and disgusted by guys who do everything of the over .

Im not a girl who needs your attention.

Im not a girl who'll wait for guys to do things for her ,

Im not a girl who goes for girlish stuff .

Im not a girl who goes around flirting.

Im not a girl who shows you her weakness .

Im definitly not a girl you can mess around with.

Im a girl who fight and stand up for herself.

Im a girl who need her space and freedom.

Im a girl who dont cry infront of ppl.

Im a girl who tries to be strong.

Im a girl who fall easily and hard to get out from it.

And im definitly a girl with pure determination to fight for the things i wants and love.

2010-09-30T01:29:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i had this laugh or rather smile.
Went lepak with Jon and Pi noon at bugis and off to meet natalie honeybitch at Toa Payoh before heading down to amk.
And here i am sleeping over .
Gonna meet belo later! Yay!

Things definitely change.
Is tat on purpose?
Please do tell me it is .

2010-09-29T22:06:00.002+08:00

Theres nothing i could say.

Theres nothing i could do.

Too many unanswered question.

Shall leave it tat way.

2010-09-25T23:38:00.004+08:00

Your word.... to contradicting.
You already made your decision yet why you care so much?
Your side chapter close .
My side i'll handle it myself.
Things wasnt worst at first but i think now it might be .
Tat suck and i dont like it .
I dont intend to say this but maybe i should .

Lets just pretend tat it didnt happened in the first place?
Lets just forget bout everything.
But on the other hand ..
I shall tell you wad im feeling ...

I smile brighter when I am at my lowest
I just want one day to go by where I'm not pretending to be happy.

Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh I'm falling apart. Look closely to me and you will see, the girl I am.....isn't me.

Tired of trying. Sick of crying. Yeah, I'm smiling, but inside I'm fuck up.
Most of my life,
I feel like I'm living a lie,
although on the outside I may seem happy,
inside all I want to do is cry

I never realized how hard it is to pretend,
to peace together a heart that just won't mend,

i'm done pretending, so here it goes so better listen Fa**!
: no, i'm not okay with the fact
that you broke my heart.
no, i'm not okay with the fact that
we're not even talking anymore. and to top it all of,
no, i'm not okay with the fact that
i fell in love with you in the first place.

every girl has that one boy that she will never get over.
And that include me myself .
that one that makes me laugh all the time;
that one that gives me butterflies just by hearing your name;
that one who has his name written all over your heart;
that one who you compare everyone to;
that one that you never get sick of talking or hearing about;
that one that no one can understand why it's him;
that one that everyone thinks i can do better than;
that one that makes me ask, "why him?";
that one that you will never be able to forget.

just because i try not to think about it doesn't mean i'm over it,
that i feel better or that i'm ever going to be okay.
It took quite some time but i suddenly realized that i wasn't in love with you,
but more the thought of you. i loved who you were and being around you .

Okay im done with all this crap .
I wont hide wad im feeling now .
So since you've seen it .
Digest it and get over with .
And we're end this once and for all .

We're start afresh .
I mean it .
And this shit will never be surface anymore .

2010-09-25T01:20:00.002+08:00

Can i just say im confused .
Im blanked out of the sudden .
Did i really mean wad i say?
Lets just forget it .
Im tired .

2010-09-25T00:02:00.002+08:00

FA** you suck!

Im sick of ppl saying "Honestly you're a great girl.."
Its all bullshit .
The last time my ex told me tat , the next thing i knew he was attached . Fuck!

I had a crush on someone , someone i finally feel i wanted to be with .
Someone i feel comfortable with .
I didnt know all this could lead to me liking him which NOW i think Im such a noob
but whatever wads done been done .

We bicker alot and i hate/like tat .
He gave me the suspense but later crushing it .
To be honest i tried to hold on to those tears but fail .
I cry not because im sad .
I cry because its the same cycle everytime.
I'll be lying if i say i not pissed.
Im pissed . Im not sad nor depressed im just pissed.
If i could punch him in the face i would totally do it .
Im not pissed with him but im pissed at how they think .
I guess now i know how those guys feel when i said the same damn thing .

girl:don't be too proud
boy:Why can't i?
girl: Why should You
boy:Why shouldn't i?
girl:Why should You
boy: cause maybe you're worth it.

Lets just say he wasnt thinking properly when he said tat .
Cause now when i think back its BULLSHIT. :D

*And i dont want your sympathy.
I know you will say no you never but you made me feel tat way.

I dont need you to please me .
Cause it just make me feel like you're sympathing me .

2010-09-13T19:51:00.000+08:00

MISSING IN ACTION
BYE

2010-08-22T18:33:00.002+08:00

Me had so much fun with Akasyah muss misha razi and co .
Went break fast at Dhoby Gaunt den off to baybeats!!
Wad a blast i tell you .
Me want more and more outing with them!!

2010-08-21T14:52:00.000+08:00

sorry but i lost myself.

2010-08-10T00:22:00.002+08:00

You may see me laughing.
You may see me joking .
You may see me being optismistic.
You may see me happy .
You may see me smiling .
But you will never see me breakdown infront of you .

From one problem tat has settle came another problem .
Seriously mummy daddy if you think you no longer love one another or so .
I rather you go your separate ways .
What i see in this family is such play pretend .
You're just pretending to love one another but actual fact you no longer do .
You may think we dont know anything but the actual fact we knew long ago tat something was wrong somewhere . The feeling i used to have then and now totally different .
What used to be warmth loving and full of laughter house became cold unloved quarrel and cold war house . We dont like this feeling .

I never thought i'll be having problems like this .
I'll never thought i'll be giving you guys blessing if you ever divorce .
I feel Daddy no longer trust you.
and Mummy you no longer tell us your wherebouts .
Both did something i dont think ill able to forgive .
Maybe ill forgive but dont think ill forget .

Gosh! Im feeling so vexed!

2010-08-08T02:22:00.002+08:00

Went to work today . Event was at Eunos .
I was fasting but surprisinly i wasnt tired!!
The miracle of fasting and prayer . Awesome right . heh
Work was fairly okay.. boring at certain point .
Good thing there was Jai my music man!
Im so gonna be his 1 Fans!
And Jai i wanna see you perform on tat day!
For the sake of me perform okayyyy!
Much love♥ if you perform heh .
I make sure i make a signboard for you hor .
Big big one!!

And after tat head down to Gombak for project work and lepak!
Took cab send Priscillia sayang home and home sweet home!

I was wondering why am i so afraid of being tied down.
I can always fall in love and get my heart break but still not attach .
So why the hassle right?
Well im just trying to find someone im comfortable with i guess.
So till then imma got to explore the crowd .
I do have some good ones tat i kinda interested in but i dont think they're fall for me .
Cause its hard . Like Real hard..

I dont know why but i have this interest in guy who are musically talented..
Even if you're thin fat ugly handsome disabled so long you know music i find you hot!
Like serious .

And have you had any guys tat sings to you in mrt train?
If no you should try it!
Cause i encounter my first experience.
Though he was singing his song to let me hear but my gosh its romantic la for tat moment.
Its like soooooo sweet can .
Me like! I swear tats gonna happened once in a lifetime .
Plus his voice A-W-E-S-O-M-E :D !!

2010-08-06T23:03:00.002+08:00

I should have grab you and not let you go .
But why did i did that i also dont know .
Which one im refering to? Eh i also dont know .
haha . All i know I miss all .
Greedy right but wad to do .
Some are jerks some are angel but all haywire . heh

But tat particular person ive alwasy wanted to talk to came talking to me!
heh . Me like!! ^^

2010-08-06T16:09:00.003+08:00

Someone sweet wrote this i feel sooo touched le . Heh

"Numium, my dearest! No matter what happen to you, I want to let you know, I will still want to be your dearest and your BFF. Nothing going to change my mind. Please stay strong. I want the hyper you back."

Sweet or what right .
Yupp i admit didnt talk to him since Monday .
Wasnt in the mood or in the right state of mind .
Therefore i dont want more trouble cause to my friend .
Im sorry Darling♥

Today our school celebrate national day in advance.3 words..
WASTE OF TIME!!!
Seriously sat there like idiot then after 1hour and a half show finish and we can go home .
Me and My lovers went to lot 1 watch movie .
Despicable Me . Nice funny show . Me liiiiiiiike! Heh
Den off to Siam Kitchen eat .
Picture will be uploaded when Verzen upload it . Heh

My Lovers! Seriously Ite is fun because of this bunch of lovers i have .
Be it im sad happy angry frustrated sick they are there for me .
Be it the sun the rain the typhoon heh okay over already heh . They are also there for me.
Not only for me but for one another .
Tats what friends are for right?
Hopefully my jugdement is right arrrrrr ... Heh!
And i cant stop saying this but me ♥♥♥ you guys much much!!

My Zhaozu Darling♥

Thanks for willing to be my dearest and forever BFF!
Thanks for letting me call you darling heeh .
Thanks for letting me know you care cause it does make a different in my lifes .
And i just wanna let you know . There's not need to put on tat fake face around us cause you know we will accept you for you right .
I know how you feel because i used to be like you .
Be it sad depressed angry ill still put on tat fake face so tat ppl around me wudden have to worry about me . So from now be the real you okay .
You wanna be like a bitch a jerk or whatever go ahead okay .
The most we do is just treat you invinsible only . Ahahahaah! Kidding!

My second love Karen sweetheart♥
Thanks for always showing me you care!!
From me goin through the tough period you always worry for me and always making sure im alright.Thanks for being my listening ear, girlfriends everything!
And not forgeting helping me in my test so that i wudden have to flunk!
You remember saying lets all go higher nitec with you and the rest together!!
we'll work hard to achieve those dreams and goal alright!
And finally make sure you bring tat carrot keychain everywhere you go uh! heh

My third Love Evon Darling♥
Me like goin back with you cause then i wudden have to be so lonely in train .
Me like you sitting beside me cause then ill have someone to slack with . heh
Thanks for always asking me to wipe my hands after eating tibits uh .
You're just like a grandma to me . Heh . Opps!!
And also thanks for being my listening ear too and let me talk to you bout stuff .
But next time stop being so clean freak can? heh .. :D

My Fourth Love Verzen♥
Thanks for always sharing your wonderful story to us .
Be it relationship or family . You never fails to make us laugh like crazy .
And your stupid face sometime all can make us laugh . Which is good cause sometime you make me forget bout the problem im facing .Therefore keep it up!!

My Fifth and last love Priscillia sayang♥
Thanks for always finishing our food for us when we cant eat finish!
Love the "Dont waste food" slogan from you . heh .
And whatever clubbing song i wanna i can always look for you .
Thanks for always giving me hugged when we are about to apart .
Your hug are nice and sincere i can feel it . lol!
Like real only . ANyway really thanks for being the youngest girl in the group cause you can let me take care of you or rather we .
Thanks for always being silly and blur blur .
Me likeeee! So keep up the good work uh!

Seriously thanks guys for everything .
Everything that you've done has touches my heart like seriously .

And lastly Thanks daddy and mummy for all the advice and prayer when i told you about what happened . Some parents will be like" crazy uh? I think you think too much la "
But my parent sat down and hear me said about what happened .
They were there to make me feel better . Making sure everything is alright .
But whatever happened to me or my parent i just wanna let them know i love them much!
And even if we're not together or anything i still love them as always .
And also my sister .
Thanks for being there when im afraid .
Skipping yout taekwondo and rushing home cause i was scared being alone .
Thanks for everything .
Your care concern love really appreciate it much!!

This taught me to be stronger and closer to god .
And really letting me know tat deep down inside im still devoted to you god .
And everyday before bedtime im always praying to you asking you for protection and prevent me from those evil forces and you really did .
Thanks Amin!

2010-08-04T16:02:00.002+08:00

I feel a sudden fear that i never felt before..
I thought i wasn't afraid of it but i was wrong .
My heart isnt strong enough .
But now its a must for me to be strong .
Have strong faith in god tat somehow god will protect me from it .

I dont know what will happened tonight but ill be brave to face it .
Im not gonna let tat thing bring me down .
Im not gonna let tat thing control me .
Im not gonna be afraid of it . NEVER!!

*Oh God Im asking for protection from you.
Keep me away from those devil.
I need you to make me stronger.
Please ..

2010-08-04T11:47:00.002+08:00

I dont know whether your post is talking about me but i just wanna say is currently im not myself and im not feeling good . I cannot say what it is cause i dont want more trouble not from you or anything but from something. Its just unexplainable . I need to settle certain stuff before i can be what it used to be . You're not annoying definitely not. Yea i miss how it used to be, me calling your name everything , Joking around disturbing you but for now i just cant. Im not pretending or if this is me . This is not me definitely not how i behave . Im sorry ,

2010-08-03T15:15:00.002+08:00

I shudden have gone to that BBQ .

I shudden have talk to him .

For now my life have changed .

I feel presence around me .

Im scared . Very scared ,

I want to sleep alone at night but i feel someone there with me.

I dont know what they want from me ,I wanna tell my parent but am afraid something will happened.. I wanna get away from it but i cant .

How? What am i suppose to do .

Im scared very scared .

Why is it me .

What do they want from me .

2010-07-26T22:10:00.002+08:00

Like i say malas nak layan .

Tell you before i dont like my friend getting involve with my other friends .

Yet you did it . Now you know the consequences?

You broke up with him .

Everything become so awkward and not looking right .

Well friends is still friends but good friends... nah i think friend better .

I got nothing to say .. Or rather i dont wish to say ...

I so loveeeeeeee my darling zhaozu , darling , sayang , sweetheart!!

You know who you are . heh!

2010-07-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

Wee~ See this website from my friend blog . Seem interesting . heh

http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/guide/monkey.html

MONKEYCharacteristics & Personality

1. Monkeys can't see they forest for the trees

2. Flatter Monkeys and they may do great things (?)

3. Monkeys are clever with their hands and good imitators

4. Monkeys are restless animals of action

5. Monkeys move easily when given instructions 6. Monkeys are a cheerful life of the party

7. Monkeys try hard if small change is involved

8. Monkeys are a bit goofy

9. Monkeys are trusting and easily deceived

10. Monkeys are curious and want to improve themselves

This is like soo true .

You are Purple Panther who tends to be precautious, and unlike your gentle atmosphere you are strong-minded and courageous woman.
You don't listen to other people, and carry out with your opinion.
Although you don't possess coolness to see things objectively, and analyze subjects intelligently, you have great natural instinct.
You have flexible thoughts, and can lead life with perseverance.
You will not miss opportunity.
You can adapt and sort out difficulties that you come across.
You can face the things that interest you with unusual effort and spirit, but you will not even try to see those things that you are not interested.
You seem like a gentle and kind person, but really you possess lots of problems and are always struggling within yourself.
People are unable to understand your complicated feelings.
This increase your problems further.
You are a person with great dreams and are active and possess straight forward baldness.
You can show this talent in your career.
You will not be able to stay quietly at home as a housewife.

2010-07-25T23:15:00.003+08:00

Was out with karen and zhaozu darling to marina square yesterday for our steamboat at seoul garden!

Though its like only 3 ppl but we enjoy it very muchy!

Denn head dowm to esplanade to lepak and home sweet home .

I bet future will have more musketeer outing again! haha

I so loveeeeeeeee them much much especially the cute one in orange shirt .

He is soooooooo adorable la .

I always loveeeeeeee bully him . heh

Heart breakers .

Im trying to figure out wad i did wrong to make you leave.

We didnt quarrel no we didnt and you vanished just like tat .

How could i know

When you lied to my face

How could i ever see

You weren't in love with me

Like stupid me like serious .

Haa dumb as usual!

I hate school but i need to complete it .

I have to be puntual starting from today cause teacher already send me text messages telling me to be puntual or i'll be barred from exam . Ftw!

2010-07-20T00:42:00.002+08:00

Yea im feeling at my worst .
Out of all this time now .
Cant be lousier den this .
I spend my everyday trying to avoid conflict with you but in the end we still quarrelled.

I got C the worst grade ever for my DTG .
I feel sad but not really sad .
Am starting to worry bout my progress to higher nitec like serious .
Today had my CSR test and i lost 9 fucking mark!!
My stupid mistake a stupid mistake .
If only i read the question properly . Fuck tat .

I wanna close my eyes praying everything will be back to wad it is.
Im neglecting the ppl around me .
Im losing interest in everything .

2010-07-20T00:02:00.002+08:00

Seriously tell the truth .
If you think im being a flirt or the way i act is like bitch .
I really got no comment .
Im tired of having to explain to you or prove to you .

Like i always said .
Like me for me .
This my character .
This is who i am .
Im not faked im me .

Im tired of always having to quarrel with you over this issue .
Its 21 century my dear . Girls are being bold and open in terms of making friends.
And Its just making friends for goodness sake.
If guys can make friends with girl why not girls?
And if guys can take number from girls why not girls?
Is tat being fair to us? Always having to fear you guys calling us girls a flirt .

And enough of me explaining cause im getting too tired .

2010-07-18T18:55:00.002+08:00

You're the reason why im afraid of love .

2010-07-17T18:38:00.002+08:00

Such a boring Saturday!
Belo is out of town to Selangor .
And left me all alone here rotting .
My phone is so quiet today and it will be untill tomorrow night when he come back .

Was on the phone the whoooole night to the morning with him.
And i went to sleep immediately after hanging up.
It was a joy talking to you belo!!

Woke up at 1.30pm .
Eat-> teevee-> eat->Teevee->Guitar->facebook
Goin jogging soon!

*Miss you belo!
Ke nak tidor ke yellow ke pillow? heh <3

2010-07-16T18:46:00.002+08:00

(Isn't the guys beside me handsome! lol!)

Dtg exam was like a piece of cake! Heh
Ya like real only . lol
It'll be like a piece of cake if i like kinda cheat?
Which honestly i did . BUT! I also did study .
I studied till 2 plus and was on the phone with Isaac Belo till nearly 4am .
I nearly cant wake up for school .

Was late as usual .
Finally realise my CA is one of the most awesome CA ever .
He let me and karen go home as they all thought got spot check.
And i dont want to be caught again for my skirt .
And i'll definitely will learn to be a good and learn to appreciate him more.
And and and i might be goin vietnam in october! Yay!!

Went to matrix waited for evon them finish school .
Head down causeway to watch "Blood Pledge".
Rating 3.5/5 . Not bad ,
Den lepak at Mc cafe and home sweet home ppl!

I swear its time for numnim to be polite to ppl .
Stop being too direct and care about wad ppl feel . :)

And i like this video .
" Love the way you lie"

Guys lie?
Yupp they sure do..
Good lie or bad lie we dont know .
All we got to do is learn to be smart to spot those lies.

For me i've learn to go with the flow .
I've learn to take things easy and learn to break those heart .
Call it a pay back for all those heart break i've been getting?
Well wads past have pasts i just wanna know how it feel to hurt those heart?
Bet not as sad as how girls got their heart broken but its the experience heh . lol

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

2010-07-13T19:43:00.002+08:00

Marlboro anyone? heh

Love love love!

2010-07-13T19:23:00.004+08:00

Wassup peep!

Im back from school not long with my sister and my beloved Evon♥
School was boring~ Was late for the first lesson or rather didnt attend the first lesson .

Was tired . Turn up for the second lesson which is like at 10am .

Me and Evon as usual munch through the lesson as always .

We like munch on Tibit, Sour stuff , Chocolate and most awesome CARROT CAKE! haha .

Im gonna try muching on Red bean, Kuih and stuff in class . haha

Monday was supposingly monday blues right but for me its like monday madness!

Its like im so high maybe because i slept at 5am because of football!

YAY! Spain won!!

And currently i found the love of my life..

Evon Kristen Lautner♥

8 July 2010

2010-07-12T01:55:00.003+08:00

Cousin wedding!
The first of the bunch to get married!
Im so happy happy for you like seriously .
She's damn beautiful on tat day .
I sang on her wedding for the first time . Heh

Congrat cousin!!

2010-07-12T01:19:00.003+08:00

Just came back from outing with secondary school mate!
Picture will be uploaded when they uploaded it! Heh .

Went Mind cafe at boat quay .
As usual our soon to be lepak place . lol
Had great fun with them minus some minor piss off . Yay!

Tell the truth some things are not goin smoothly for me .
I mean only for me. I dont know why.
And guess wad?
Its my first time hearing someone say"Talking to me on the phone is such a turn off."
Well then too bad for you i guess..
Cause most ppl like talking to me and i dont see them getting turn off by me.
And you know wad ..
I dont know why i kept on trying to please you though i know you're not the one for me.
I mean i did tat cause i dont wanna lose you as a friend .
But it looks like you dont really wanna be my friend so oh well .
Wad can i do right . At least i tried .
At least i tried understanding your character .
I cant understand why you cant at least accept me for me.
I mean yea im straight forward ..
Yea im give the dont care attitude all but tat doesnt mean i reall dont really care right?
I tried explaining but you dont seem to care .
And why say sorry when you're not at fault..

2010-07-09T13:27:00.003+08:00

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'm might tear you apart cause..

I'm only gonna break break your break break your heart
I'm only gonna break break your break break your heart
I'm only gonna break break your break break your heart
I'm only gonna break break your break break your heart

i remember years ago
someone told me i should take
caution when it comes to love
i did, i did
and you were strong and i was not
my illusion, my mistake
i was careless, i forgot
i did
and now when all is done
there is nothing to say

broken trust and broken hearts

2010-07-07T17:09:00.002+08:00

If you're wondering why my Blog recently no photo upload is due to me losing my USB cable .

Heh. So sorry ppl . Will try find ways to upload it into the com .
We've move too CCK campus and it suck?! Not joke . I miss Clementi campus like so much .
Miss the milos and the teh .

I love being in the same school with my sister .
She almost call me everyday to see where i am, if i Having my break now or if i've finish school . Heh
Sweet or wad! Lol . Too bad my brother not in the same school as us . If not it'll be A-W-E-S-O-M-E awesome!!!

Cousin getting married this saturdy . Yay .

I'm like so packed with activities this fews days and week and i'm like so careless to clash everything together! Sometime even forgetting i have something on tat particular day .

So many ppl to catch up with.
So many ppl to go out with .
Its like never ending!!

2010-06-29T02:32:00.002+08:00

Im hook on facebook game!
So does my sister and brother!

Life been pretty giving me ups and down .
Been goin work with tat sick face of mine cause im really sick in my stomach!
1 more week to school reopen.
School gonna be near my house which is CCK! Yay!

Currently cant sleep .
Gonna do project later on .

Sister goin chalet later .
3 Days chalet! Woohoo!!

*1 more week to me finally goin for my check up .
Im afraid of confessing something.

2010-06-26T17:20:00.005+08:00

EUGENE NG LAIF
okay...today before i woke up....i knew my life was going to change....
so EPIC....
i OPENED my eyes...
brushed my teeth...so CLEAN
its DARLIE toothpaste
then...
*skip*
*censored*
*i travelled in sardine can*
(before that got call buddy)
then FUCK
EPIC AGAIN
i was playing with a instrument that got alot alot strings....
make nice sounds i say
but thats not the point
its this moment of TRUTH
NOTHING BUT RAW TRUTH
IT WAS LIKE FEAR FACTOR
NO WAIT...ITS LIKE SURVIVOR..
actually its just seeing my buddy CRY for the first time
D: (over one guy she call bastard...LOL...owell...)
okay finally i posted my first blog post in 999999999 hundred years
kthxbai

2010-06-26T17:06:00.002+08:00

We've broken up!
Yes! We've broken up!
Wee! We've broken up!
Yay! We've broken up!

I'm happily devastated! Yay!

I guess it right you will dump me bitch!

And wad goes around comes around PATOL!

You're full of shit.
Say will never dump me in the end also dump.
Say you love me will never have the heart to break with me den now? FUCK YOU!
Wad kind of shit saying" need to put me aside because of school"
You think im some kind of toy to play around is it?
To think i trusted your words.
You treated me like how you treat other girls and it makes me sick.

I'll never date a MALAY GUY no more!

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How's tat feel part time?
Hurt? Angry? Embarrassed?

Cause..
I'M JUST KIDDING!
Just wanna see how's your reaction . Heh .
Anyway we're just part time so i dont bother much . Heh!

2010-06-26T14:15:00.002+08:00

Meet up with these two bitches at sembawang .

Wanted to go slacked at Mc but because too packed!

later will blog back!

2010-06-23T18:48:00.003+08:00

Just came back after work .

Going for a jog later .

My life is surrounded by work and work and more work .

Nothing much to update .

Bored eh . Haha . What to do .

At least i was honest with you when i told you .

I know you're angry disappointed with me .

But i did tell you just give me sometime and i'll stop .

And this i promise you i will really stop .

I did wad i did for years because tats the fastest way to get to where i want to be .For years ive been doin how do you expect me to stop right away . Its unhealthy yea i know . Its disgusting yea i know . I know everything but i just can't help it . I really can't. I just need ppl to understand why i made myself to go through all this .

2010-06-20T18:39:00.003+08:00

Was out with Part time yesterday.

We're always clueless to where to go .

Which also sometime pisses me off .

So went to town and off to amk and went to slack back at sembawang .

Had satisfy my craving which is slice fish soup! Yay!

And oh ya almost forgot .

My mom saw my part time while we're walking at amk .

Scared the shit out of my living life .

Heh . Good thing she was friendly.

And yupp my parent approve of him ,

Every Sunday is our off days which mean im single on every sunday.

Cool or wad right . Lol!

Couples do need off day okay or else things will get bored easily .

So baby do wad you wanna do BUT with condition..

Do wad you think its right and doesnt pissed me off! Heh .

Love you miss you!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO MY DADDY!

You're been such an awesome daddy ever!

A daddy which i think is the best in the world!

You cook for us .

You iron clothes for us.

You joke with us.

You clean the house.

You pampered us .

You love us .

You love this family.

And most important ..

You love mummy.

You're responsible.

There's so many things you and mummy have gone through together for us and i'm terribly grateful for everything . Yes , sometime i shout at you all but i really didnt mean it.

Im sorry and thank you very much daddy!

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCHY MUCHY MUCHY!!!

2010-06-17T03:03:00.004+08:00

Im Happy and satisfied with my life cause part time Love has made it easier for things to move on!

And im starting to love him day by day and same goes to him . Heh .

Our relationship is complicated but yet it never dies there. hah!

He text me when his bored .

He text me when he misses me .

He text me almost everyday,

Cause he misses me everyday .

070610 Is the date we were together .

I know him for almost 2 month i guess in the train!

Cool huh . His my fren the fren .

My part time is tall .

My part time is cute .

My part time have dim ple!

My part time has the sweetest smile.

My part time love me more den i do .

My part time is lazy . Very lazy!

My part time is a malay. Heh

My part time is smart .

Last and foremost he respect me!

And yes ppl im semi attached! LOL!

2010-06-17T02:49:00.002+08:00

Out with Verzen and Karen . Was supposingly meet up with more den 2 bud all disappear duno go where .

Was suppose to go sentosa but plan fail . Wth! But whatever still had awesome time with them!

When vivo slacked den off to ha par vila . Intersting place.

Head to to Jurong point .

Whole day was s[end on eating and eating . Heh!

2010-06-08T21:01:00.002+08:00

I rather be cruel.

I rather be mean.

I rather be not lovable.

What can you do?

I chose to leave you.

I chose to ignore you.

I chose to chose.

Wad can you do?

Ive move on babe!

You should too.

2010-06-08T19:50:00.002+08:00

Im beginning to feel love by all these ppl above!

heh! Especially Tat guy above zhao zu! haha.

Kidding! He'll kill me later .

Today first time i leave the school at 6 plus
Stayed back to do project!

Im so loving project .. Ya right , My ass!

Anyway. Isn't it cool?

Im semi attached! lol

Okay tats lame .

And ive lose the interest to blog like seriously.

I duno wad to blog and plus my life is so boring.

Not schoolin working .

And finally you're not tat important to me anymore . :)

2010-06-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

While waiting for Kenneth to pass me his flight research i shall blog!

Yay! Im proud to say im one project less!

Im only left with DTG project and a few more test and holiday here we come!

First week of holiday freaking pack with activity.

14 June: Sentosa with my Retarded bitches from school!

Volleyball , Mens , sun , My god bet those babes cant wait! Heh

*I can see tat you'll party animal!

A party animal!

A party animal like me!*

Ive got so many things to buy next week .

Like wth . If i not wrong i gotta buy like 4 or wait plus my brother tats 5.

Cool or wad!

My mitchy goin NS tomorrow!

How sad! Too sudden lar!

I haven even see him yet and the next thing i know he goin in tomorrow .

Still ask me wait 2 weeks later.

Heh . Ill wait mitchy!

I want see how macho he become . lol .

And how bald he is too .

Bet damn funny siol .

*Alright hopefully nothing goes wrong for the project!

2010-06-03T02:35:00.002+08:00

Im still doing project at this time of the hour.

Wtf. Like seriously wtf!

Project test project test!

Making me crazy.

Such heavy responsibilities!

I think you miss me.

Cause i miss you too .

Ever since you talk to me tat day.

I start missing you again .

I shudden have mention your name .

I shudden said i miss you calling me bitch or ah lian.

If only you hadnt made tat decision.

If only you hadnt text me that message tat day,

If only cause ...

I wudden have been so dilemma .

You ask me wait,

I thought i wud wait .

Budden i decided wads the use.

If you're gonna be busy the next time, are you gonna break with me again?

Shall i'll be foolish once again?

Shall i'll give you a second chance?

2010-05-31T19:10:00.002+08:00

Dont say i dont miss you guys cause I DO!

I really do!

Each of us have our lifes commitment therefore hard for us to meet!

Bud we will meet up sooon! Very soon ppl!

Rushing for project will update when im free!!!!!!!!!!!!

I promise!!!

2010-05-27T15:36:00.002+08:00

Yes ppl! Im back!

So long nver really blog .

Been busy with project thingy .

Next week starting of exam and presentation thingy .

Dont have enough time to waste .

Been sick for almost 1 week ,

MC for 2 days . Great right!

My result are not looking great!

My project are goin haywire.

My health also goin haywire .

I love love love my retarded Clique!

Thanks for being there and helping with attendance ,booking of table and chair all!

Im always late! And Karen is so nice to fetch me when it rains from busstop!

Sweet or wad!!!

I hate when everything's goin fine and you give me this?

How am i suppose to do?

2010-05-18T00:32:00.002+08:00

Why "I love You" this phrase can be said so easily?

Just dont get why ppl say like it meant nothing when it actually have meaning in it.

For me when i say or you say "ILOVEYOU" it actually mean "BULLSHIT" to me!

Yea the truth hurts.

I miss my brown hair.

Will reunite with you soon .

And guess wad you're over!

Im done with you.

SO next person thank you!

It frustrate me when the person you dont like show sign of interest.

And when you fall for tat person , tat person just suddenly disappear or turn cold .

Too tell the truth lost interest in all this shit man .

Flirt with me, i flirt back double.

Sweet talk me ,i sweet talk you back double.

Piss me, i piss you double.

Hurt me, I hurt you double

Fall for me? nah Im sorry not interested .

2010-05-15T04:07:00.004+08:00

Its 4.12am in the morning .

Im awake cause im doing my ITI project.

My shoulder are aching and i just cant wait to just crash.

Auen was being sweet nice boy today as not only he borrow me his token of love eh wait wrong is thumbdrive, heh, he even accompany me to stay up late to finish my project. Thanks!

My teammate are sleeping except for Hongwei my little brother.

Is awake and accompanying me chat while i finish up the project.

Went to school late today despite the fact Auen morning call me.

And did i tell you i skip 1 freaking month of PE even though i say i want to change this habit?

Tsk tsk tsk . Numnim never change!

Oh well wad to do ..

And i seem to bump into my ex in school quite often .

Like more den i bump into my buddy.

Why eh? Its like turn here his face turn there his face.

Not saying i dont like but every single time i saw him i have to at least look at him and smile.

Its like not natural .

And still can say lets be friend?

Is this how friends should act around each other?

Okay im the sort past is past since you want to continue be my friend should act like one .

And Mr L i miss the past when you like to call me bitch! :)

Bump into Tat Ass and hewen yesterday when on the way home.

Tat Ass never fails to get on my nerves.

If i can punch him in the face right now i would! Heh.

And i dont mean in when i said i didnt miss you a tiny bit!

I miss you alot alright Ass!!!

Bud there are times i dont la cause some ppl will tend to distract me. :D

Im good at flirting so? Learn from me lor .

2010-05-13T01:34:00.003+08:00

(Was playing a fool with my hair in school)

Alright time check its 02.00am and im not asleep cause why?

Im still working on my ITI project like wtf .

All my team mate should be asleep le ba and im still stuck here doin project work .

And facebook and blogger is so distracting me la . Fuck tat!

Im getting busier busier day by day.

Wanna quit my job bud i cant .

Time management damn important .

I lost my thumbdrive how smart can i be.

My com doesnt have powerpoint.

How in the hell im goin to do my project .

Did customer service test.

Am happy cause i studied!

Hopefully a good grade!

Den off to leeling ROM at east coast.

Romantic and touching!

Feel like getting married bud nah .. haha

And off back home .

And oh ya! Thanks allen for accompanying me all the way to bus stop!

Appreciate much!

Stomach getting unhealthy day by day.

Gastric acting up like nobody business.

Migrain like never ending.

Worry like there's no tomorrow.

Tsk tsk tsk ...

Numnim uh numnim!

Anyway goin back my project!

No distracting please!

Thank you!

2010-05-11T00:05:00.003+08:00

Florrbal training is so damn tired and boring.

Was quite shock to know my stamina is actually not bad.

RUn around the hall for 7 min how cool was tat!

I dont even attend PE much less even running for PE lesson . lol

Tomorrow shall be a good girl and run!

After training went to work .

I feel so smelly and sticky and tired siol!

Was worried about how am i to study for tomorrow exam!

Looks like goin to burn the midnight oil later .

And oh yupp! Went to school with my beloved Buttass and his friend.

Nice nice nice lady. :)

And saw L post saying his mother goin operation.

Was kinda like feeling low for awhile bud everythings fine now.

I'll pray everything goes smoothly for your mom's operation .

She'll be fine cause there's god acompanying and protecting her alright.

Don't worry. :)

I'll be here if you ever need me.

Alright i seriously need to do my revision . Bye!

2010-05-10T00:25:00.003+08:00

Im lazy to upload photo on my blog .

So pls stop asking me upload more.

I will upload when i have the mood to uplaod .

Happy Mother's Day mummy!

Love you much much!

Today work was not busy .

I like being the host cause i dont have to move around tat much .

Later on got school .

Ive got cca too. Yay!

Floorball here i come!

And and goin school tomorrow with Buddy! Yay!

Human change feeling faster den the speed of light.

Why? cause i also dont know .

Things are always easy bud human loves making it complicated .

Why? Cause i also dont know.

Im not sad im just upset..

Im not happy im relief..

Im relief everything is over even before i start falling.

Cause if not , it'll make things worser.

Your decision was a wise one .

When I had you to myself
I didn't want you around
Those pretty faces always made you stand out in a crowd
But someone picked you from the bunch
one glance was all it took
Now it's much too late for me to take a second look

2010-05-08T15:25:00.002+08:00

Project is making me piss with my project groups like serious!

After school off to west mall with verzen karen them all .

They gonna do project and im waiting to meet honeybitch so follow them awhile .

Den head down yck to meet honeybitch off to orchard for shopping time!

Miss her alot alot alot!!

Den after tat slack and met supeng at Mc.

Something happened .

And BuddyEugeneNg came down sembawang at 10 plus,

Accompany me home changed clothes and off to woodlang his place .

Its also another once in the lifetime treatment from him.

And we slack at his place and play taiti!!

Buddy, Thanks alot yesterday.

Thanks for showing me you care.

Not saying you dun care bud eh wait you care? heh

Bud anyway appreciate it much . Love you!

And all good things has come to an end..

heh! Thanks much !

2010-05-05T23:52:00.003+08:00

Schools is going to be more hectic and work is getting more busy .
Ive like got to complete 2 project in like 3 weeks!
How to find time siol!!

Anyway stay back for project today and Chee Fong pisses me off today like literally pissin me off today!
Feel like just punching his face and stuff chili padi in his mouth! Fuck tat!

And waited for baby to finish his class den off to CCK to the library and to town to collect my pay .
He was sweet enough to accompany me there despite the fact he no ez-link card!
And i became the bus girl! Heh!

Am a happy girl since i collect my pay!
Goin shop with honebitch to buy dress for Leeling ROM which means im taking wednesday afternoon off!
Hopefully teacher approve of it!

And town was well spend with tat bitch! haha.
Love ya! And Baby never think tat you neglect me alright cause you don't.
I too dun really spend alot of my time with you so its okay .
We're understanding ppl right ? lol
You know relax only mah . Chill!

And please start studying for your Os bitch! Thanks!

2010-05-02T23:50:00.002+08:00

And to tat Nerd boy! Thanks for loving me.

And its okay, i never felt you're neglecting me at all cause i've been neglecting you too .

So we both are equal . And stop with the asking me to time you! lol!
And yea i will be spending lesser time with you due to my hectic schedule.

So hope you understand alright?

And i know you'll be busy too.

Busy with schooling, Os and dragon boat thingy .

Bud its alright! WIll meet up real soon for a proper date alright?

Love ya bitch!!

2010-05-02T23:45:00.002+08:00

When to work in the morning and off to meet Jason.

Bugis-Lavender-Vivo

Damn tiring. I was sleepy!

Because tat bitch woke me up so early in the morning!

And oh ya i know i've not been updating my blog so regularly due to my hectic schedule!

Sorry ppl! so sorry!!

Thusday had school camp at discovery center!

I like it very muchy!!

TJ awesome!!!

Thanks for believing in my leadership and being cooperative with me!

Love you guys much much!!

2010-04-27T14:29:00.002+08:00

-Late for school .
-Late for class.
-Curl my hair today
-Off to school
-Like my curl hair
-Attend lesson at 11 plus when it start at 8
-Have break
-Eat young tou foo
-Play taiti
-Now in lab
-Play tati
-Off to work later at 6
-FML
Tats wad i usually do i school .

BuddyEugeneNg is sick! Take care uh!

2010-04-24T21:25:00.003+08:00

Sometime you just got to learn to let go.

Be it you want or be you dont want .
Letting go doesnt mean you're a give-up-per bud you're strong enuf to let go of tat feeling tat you know will hurt you more .

Im at grandma house now .
Feeling so bloated!
Hate tat feeling when you're so bloated .
My phone is so busy ringing la .
And my finger aching soon!
LOL! And Mr Dimple! Auen! Thanks for distracting and entertaining me today!
Lifes gonna be very hectic and tiring for me coming this week .
There's camp project work! Damn sick

I want go cycling at east coast!
Mr Dimple bring me there uh!
You say one de uh! Heh!

And Auen our steamboat date uh! heh!
Dun forget uh!! ^^

Liking the ppl around me cause they never fails to brightened up my days.
And stop my brain from thinking and thinking!

Distraction is the key to forget temporary beside smoking and alcohol!

2010-04-24T16:40:00.002+08:00

Hey Mr Mrt Dimple quiet boy♥ ! Heh!
Reading my blog i see!
Take your time to read alright .
No hurry! And do tagged alright!

And yes Miss chatterbox here just wanna do a surprised welcome to welcome you to my blog!
Haha . And yea was really nice talking to you in the train the other day .

2010-04-24T15:16:00.002+08:00

First time in my life i wake up so early to go to work .
I woke up at 4am and off to work at 5.30am .
And im back home at 2.oopm.
Im so tired and i wanna sleep bud mummy say my aunt miss me so yupp went to visit her .

Bad news for me.
Quite saddening .
My Heartsy JADE! Quit school and left me all alone in school .
Bitch her! Lifes gonna be pretty boring lar .
And and and no one to act one lesbian with me!
I feel so sad lar! T.T
Bud hey Jade! Numnim love/kit teng you mak mak na!

And and im bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay im lazy to update my life le .

2010-04-22T19:16:00.002+08:00

NUMNIM IS BEING SO PLAYFUL AND MISHEVIOUS IN SCHOOL EVER SINCE SCHOOL STARTS!

SHALL START BEING A GOOD OBEDIENT GIRL IN SCHOOL STARTING FROM NEXT WEEK!

maybe ill try reduce it alright .

Haha ! or maybe Well hell no! heh!

I make sure my friends get the most awesome memorable day ever in school! haa

And yes i know some ppl like me some ppl dont.

Bud do you think i give a fuck?

Of course hell no bitch!

Stop looking at me like i owe you money alright .

Tat look dont look fierce to me .

You think you're cute? pretty? come on .

See yourself in mirror .

Wanna be friendly crazy cool fun talkative sarcastic like me?

Look and dig and see your personality la .

Trying to act one doesnt make it look cool or real .

Just makes it look like you're trying too hard to impressed when the actual fact you don't!

SO STFU up and just be your mummy good girl alright .

Well . I think i wanna go see doctor siol if my stomach dont stop hurting .

2010-04-22T18:54:00.007+08:00

Today was late for school as always .

Heh! naughty me. Reach school at 9 plus just they release den go duno wad shit event .

In short didnt learn much today . Haa . Fuck tat!

And during lesson. CAMWHORE TIME MAN!

Go school to me like always camwhore siol.

LOL! Anyway nothing can go wrong if you have awesome classmates and teachers right? heh!

2010-04-21T14:44:00.002+08:00

I'm not sure the best way to say this
But I can't pretend to like you no more, babe
This Ferris wheels got me crazy
Maybe the second time around is not meant for us,
And yea the truth hurts.

And i know you dun mean to hurt me .
Bud it hurts to hear it from someone else .
I rather its from you .

Yea you still keep things to yourself .
There's alot which i dun know .
And will never know .

Getting you out of mind is never simple .
And so far Ive seen improve .
Remarkable improvement .

I no longer feel i need you so much around me no more .
I no longer feel i need to depend on you so much.
Though sometime i do feel a bit empty a bit lost.
I know i need to get used to it .

We've gone through 11 Months of friendship "honeymoon period" . lol
And its goin to be our 1 years next month.
And its not going to be tat easy no more .

I cant imagine losing our friendship just because of one miscommunication .
And me treating you very good doesnt mean im still in love with you .
And i want you .
It never have been .
Okay maybe in the past bud no longer now .

I treasure our friendship more den anything.
And you know tat.
You know how important you are to me .

And ever since school start.
You're been busy and ive been busy.
No longer feel tat close like how we used to be .
And i cant help bud to hate tat feeling .
Tat feeling like we're stranger .
Tat's not how it was suppose to feel isn't it?

And stop neglecting the ppl around you!
Thank you .

2010-04-21T14:04:00.002+08:00

Schools becoming more fun with all this bunch of ppl around.

Clique tat i bond with are becoming more open and fun and anooying . LOL!

Cant wait for camp!

And and and my group"TooDry" Lets score for this project alright!!

2010-04-21T14:00:00.002+08:00

-After school went to find my honeybitch

-Slack at Mc

-Talk camwhore

-Jason came for awhile den go off

-Honeybitch went to meet ikan

-Off back home

2010-04-21T13:38:00.002+08:00

-Out with jason to cityhall

-eat burger king

-Waited for his mom to finish work

-Went shopping for Jason stuff

-Head down to his mom place

-Overnight his place

-Went down slack and eat at Haji karim

-7.30am head back home

2010-04-16T23:36:00.002+08:00

Finally everything's been settle .

Sometime being brave and dun care attitude is better .

Better den hiding wad you feel cause in the end will cause more misunderstanding .

And im glad everything is fine!

2010-04-16T22:23:00.002+08:00

You think its fair to me?

You assume stuff tat i didn't say or feel.

You yourself dun wanna come talk to me.

DUn wanna clear stuff in your mind .

Keeping things to yourself .

Playing mind games with me .

If not for your friend until today i won't know anything .

Not talking out with me , you think i will know .

Not talking out with me you will get the answer you want?

Not talking to me you think i will know anything?

You never ask me question?

All you know how to do is avoid avoid avoid!

Is tat wad you like?

Is tat wad you are?

Dun you feel its tired?

Cause i do!

Im Tired of being afraid to ask you stuff when i know i'm capable of doing tat .

Im always trying to tell myself everything gonna be alright .

Bud sadly everything are not!

2010-04-15T20:31:00.003+08:00

TJ Is like so awesome!

And my classmates are mostly made up of wierdos, Nerds, trendy, cool , awesome! Rojak!

The bestest taste rojak ever! lol .

Some are guai lan bud who cares!

SOme like asking stupid question .

Some like too act cute . Heh!

Some are simply Ewwww! lol!

Anyway today had bonding session with the chinese guys in my class cause they are like so quiet.

SO miss 40 min of class lesson went canteen buy drink and chat! haha

Bunch of like funny ppl.

Den teacher like give us free period all went using com and facebook add ppl!

Hello like so KIASU please!

ANd sorry ppl yes im straight forward so..

Like me for me love me for me if not den FUCK OFF.

Im not faked when it comes to telling how i feel . :)

And if i dun like you den sorry bud ill be harsher .

SO TG beware alright? Give warning le uh . haha

Next is NS really tat sian .

My Ns friends like always complain to me very sian?

Bud sian i also cannot do anything . haha

2010-04-14T18:08:00.002+08:00

Just came back from school!

ANd so coincidently at Mrt saw alot of familiar faces!

Shamteng, my classmate in class like duh . haha and Tat Mr Eugene touchishairalotz ASSBUDDY! BUDDY! BUDDY! of mine!

And i seriously miss him like shit!

Though i dun show it in my face bud i miss him !

Mr Eugenetouchishairalotz ASSbuddy! I MISS YOU DAMN LOTS LAR!

And i miss talking to you on the phone!

ANd lesson today quite ehh not bad or nope.. wait i tink AWESOME is a better words to be used . lol

And tat Jade leave me alone in class untill lunch time den come school . Fuck her! lol okay love her! Cause at least she come for me . LOve you love you love you!!

Luckily got shameer, Ah cap and Faz the closest mates in class to accompany me first!

2010-04-13T20:17:00.003+08:00

YOU SUCK SUCKER!
And pls do i really look like ah lian?

2010-04-13T19:18:00.002+08:00

My handsome awesome Bastard buddy in school!

CHUA MEI LING~! haha . ( Yea you gonna kill me i know! haha)

Her other name JADE!

And she became my most closest buddy in school!

I call her my lesbian partner since we're always together .

And she's like me very on, very laid back, very misceivious bitch like me! haha.

And with her in school with me i won't be bored!!

And JADE! No more sleeping in class already hor!

Remember our ultimate goals hor. heh!

And today start our lesson.

Freaking boring like seriously .

I wasn't sitting beside this bitch!

She was sitting all the way to the back and no one wanna change sit with both of us! :(

Bud end up texting each other in class and tat bitch FELL ASLEEP INSTEAD OF LISTENING TO THE TEACHER!

And i end up sleeping at the very ending when lesson bout to end and now we both lost to wad to do for homework! haha

And since one of the teacher is on MC we end school earlier and went back home with Jade, Asraf and faz .

And my friend is shock and confused with my identity cause i told them my name was Numnim and the atendance was called shikin and they were like huh?

And im like ftw! haha

My class okay la not bad .

Just tat no shuai ge no mei nu. sadded!

Bud even have also, im always with tat Jade!

Jade!

haha .

Chua Mei Ling! Heh!

Jade drawing

My drawing

2010-04-11T16:28:00.003+08:00

Maybe its true.

Maybe its time for a break .

Its time to stop all this shit.

Be strong Numnim!

No more being soft hearted!

No more giving and giving!

No more worries.

No more crying.

And this time i mean it.

Jason slept my house yesterday.

And we talk till dawn.

And only slept at 7am this morning.

I wanna blog bout something bud i can't.

Tomorrow starting school and my skirt is in the tailored shop.

Wad the fuck right! How am i to go school with no skirt!

Am so not looking forward.

Kumar too told me some advice and maybe his right.

I should stop being stubborn.

And and LIANG WEIJIE!

Faster book out!

We shall go eat together!

And you shall quarrel with me alright!

2010-04-10T17:32:00.003+08:00

Im not who i thought i was!

Im not longer the one you thought i was!

All change . And i definitely change .

You think i like being a slut meh?

You think i like to flirt with ppl meh?

You think i like sweet talking to ppl meh?

You think i like being friendly and open meh?

You think i like playin play-pretend meh?

You think i like smoking meh?

You think i like getting myself drunk meh?

You think i like making ppl worry for me meh?

You think im happy doing all this shit meh??!!

No! I don't!

I made the greatest and the dumbest decision ever and i totally regret it!

I can't believe i fell for your words .

I can't believe i stayed through all these .

And yes im walking out .

Im walking out of this shit!!

Sometime i keep on saying yes im not going to give up.

But deep down ive already given up .

But why still i said im not goin to give up its because sometime the best way to shut you up is by lying!

2010-04-10T16:39:00.003+08:00

Clubbing day!!

Yesterday went clubbing with Jason and co at zakku .. something something.

It was super duper freaking boring~ and freaking waste of money!

Like seriously! Song suck!

Alcohol didn't make me high but ciggy did! ^^

Thanks to Jason friend! Tat make me high. lol

Jason and Kevin did a good job at taking care of me .

Lots of love!!

But yea before went clubbing i when to work first.

And head down to pioneer to meet tat Ass of mine.

Cause his sick but to me he DIDN'T look sick .

Still can play cards with jonathan and ravin . Wtf .

Anyway slack with them a while passed tat Ass the shirt i bought .

Not cheap you know . lol .

Den off to clubbing.

Waited for Jason friends like shit .

Waited almost 1 hour to 1 an a half hour .

Den head down to zizukka.

Boring! Boring!

Freaking Latin club with latin song and latin ppl with lots of ang moh and trans!

Such a huge disappointment . Kenny even slept in the club.

How pathetic! Very pathetic!

Jason dance like shit! Freaking awful! lol

Den slack at bridge.

Play true or dare.

Head home by cab.

Taxi uncle very kind and sweet!

Realise the taxi im always in are always good taxi driver!

taxi uncle: Xiaomei you want eat bread?

Me: Uh .. Thanks but im not hungry uncle .

Taxi uncle: You hungry tell uncle okay.

Sweet right? And he drive damn fast la .

Gonna puke anytime sooner lor . haha

Reached home around 3.30-4am and just fall asleep on the bed!

And slept till today at 2pm!

CAuse mom was like waking me up to eat!

And here i am using the com!

Buddy seem busy nowadays duno with wad thing.

And i don't miss him!

Yea like real!!

Schools starting this monday and im so not looking forward to it .

* AND TO TAT SOMEONE!!

4 LETTER WORDS!

HELLO DO YOU KNOW YOU'RE CREPPING ME AND MY SIS OUT!

YOUR EXISTENT IN OUR LIFE JUST MAKE US FEEL YOUR SUCH A BIG BIG MOTHER FUCKING EXTRA AND BUSYBODY! YOU ONLY KNOW HER FOR LIKE ONE FREAKING DAY AND YOU ACT AS IF YOU KNOW HER LIKE FOR SO LONG!! AND WAD WITH CALLING HER MUMMY WHEN YOU ONLY KNOW HER FOR LIKE FUCKING ONE DAY! I DUN LIKE YOU AND SO DO MY SISTER . SO STOP BEING A MOTHER FUCKER BUSYBODY IN PPL LIFES! AND LEAD YOUR LIFES LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO .

MOTHER FUCKER EXTRA!!

OKAY SIS DONE! :D

2010-04-01T20:54:00.003+08:00

Finally my picture being upload instead of others clique picture.
Haha . Nowadays dun feel like taking picture of myself cause find myself being ugly!
Just finished upload my covers on facebook!
Hope you guys like it!
My own original again!
Entitle "Fear"

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=380444173350&ref=nf

Talking bout fear, I dun know the decision im about to make next will either be good or bad .
I dun want to look back and regret man . Its not a good thing.
Well shit shit shit! Hate whenever i have to make a decision!

Anyway lets move on to a happy topic .
Happy topic is im gonna get my salary le!
haha . Bud before tat i must settle some things first!

Alright i got nothing to blog le.

And.. and.. Mr Eugene Touchhishairalotz!
My blog waiting for you to blog!!

Alright im bored!
Very bored!
Was browsing through fb and saw my ex got himself a girlfriend.
Tats good! Congrat! Last long .

I dun miss the past nor i will miss the future .
I just can't wait for things to changed and currently i just feel like blogging about my Buddy!

I just miss him a few second ago duno why . haha
Pathetic huh one day got 24 hour i miss him like a few second ago and not saying i dun miss him now i still miss him bud i know he'll call me later after he do his revision, guitar and his psp . haa!
Predictable action uh Buddy . LOL!

Its goin to our 11 month and ive never been happy and sick about meeting and talking to him .
Well talking bout meeting him well sometime i do get sick of seeing his face bud its just for a couple of second only lar huh . haha . Imagine talking to someone like almost everyday on the phone for 10 month plus you definitely get sick of it bud to me ive never been sick of it okay maybe sometime . ><

And couple of time i was in the shower and i suddenly was thinking will we be talking on the phone the next 5 to 10 years down the road later and this is wad he answer.

Me: Will we be talking on the phone 5 to 10 years later jin?
He: Siao! No la!
Me: why?
He: Cause we will be seeing each other everyday mah. haha

Walao its was disgusting la! i was like having goosebum siol!
Bud it was sweet of him lar to say tat .
Though i now his such a good sweet talker .
I can never guess which one he said is the truth!
Bud who cares!
Love him still!

2010-04-01T20:31:00.005+08:00

Picture uploaded as promise!

Night out with clique to city hall.
Wasn't in a good mood tat day.

Out skating with josh,kevin and peppy!
Had awesome day with them .

Coincidently youth park got BBoy competition.

And a short meet up with my honeybitch!

2010-04-01T15:18:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl!

My blog is dead i know!

And i'm sorry!

I wanted to upload picture bud sadly i forgot to bring my usb cable therefore i can't upload picture!

Currently i'm at Misha house, wanted to make covers bud end up watching soriety rows.

So i think no covers again!

Didn't blog much nowadays because just been busy working and working.

And stressing bout some stuff tat i need to settle.

Decided to retake my Os this year.

My english and my maths.

Freaking expensive sia .

Hopefully a worthy investment.

Friends,

Met up with honeybitch for a while before she go off to work.

Though its like for a short while bud still we meet up!

Miss her! Beside honeybitch didn't meet up with anyone else except for work colleague.

Gotta meet up with the rest of the clique soon!

Family,

Had not been spending time with family tat often, yes due to work.

Even if my off days also diidn't talk much cox nothing to talk? lol

Okay i seriously duno wad to blog!

Seriously seriously duno wad to blog!

Tat Ass of mine Mr EugeneNg touchhishairalotz was suppose to blog on my behalf bud sadly he didn't. See i told you his such an Ass! A sweet Ass not the bad Ass! Ive got nothing to blog except for him.haha cause beside working i spend most time talking to is him Mr Touchhishairalotz.

His been very sweet to me nowadays,

Kinda getting abit disgusting!haha

Disgusting bud.... bud... bud... i like!*pui* haha!

And yesterday he told me he misses me!

And its been like a few weeks we haven meet up and we're counting down to 8 more days to meet up! Cause we're going clubbing!

haha yes clubbing! haha

*You better behave uh*

Anyway ill blog later!

I promise!

2010-03-08T01:36:00.002+08:00

I've been missing from blogger for quite sometime due to overwork!
Im sorry! Tagged board rotting soon .
Do tagged if you read my blog. Thanks!
Love and misses!

Been coming home late nowadays .
Been spending $$ on midnight cab fare!
Damn expensive bud taxi driver tat drive me home are all nice uncle .
They never fails to say take care whenever im about to leave the cab!

Take yesterday for example,
I was from buddy place and hailed the cab,

(Uncle talking chinese)
Taxi uncle: Where you want to go?
Me: Sembawang
Taxi uncle: So late go home uh? Goin 2 plus am le. From boyfriend place uh?
Me: Haha . Yea from boyfriend house . They got dinner . Yupp
Taxi uncle: Oh okay . haha . You both look cute together uh.
Me: haha. thank you uncle .

Uncle talk to me all the way through my journey home.
And guess wad his 72 years old siol!
And still going strong man!
Touch!

And yea was around buddy area so decided to look him up .
Was at NTU to watch friends performance so yupp .
Was on the way so decided go find him since he was on the way home too.
Went his place , Play cards .
Won money also lose money!
But we had fun. :)

Works making me feel so dead tired.
Many ppl around me tell me den quit lar .
Bud i didn't cause why?
I know wad i want in life.
I know wad i want to achieve .
I will perserve till the end .
Not going to give up though sometime i really feel like doing so .
Bud 3 things keep me motivated and want to keep me going is ..

1) My family .
The looks on their whenever i give money , the smile they give me , The words of thank you ,
Just make works more fullfilling . Not saying they moneyface or wad bud to know the little amount of your thoughts and your filial can brightened and lessen a bit of their burden and those tat cannot be compared to those hardship they go through to get me where i am now i feel so grateful . So this gets me going.

2) Money of course!
The thought of having to spend your money anytime anywhere you want and not having to worry of running out of money keep me going too! The financial freedom damn nice man!
and lastly

3) Support from Beloved friends.
When i was at my darkest , Weakest , Fragile , Depress period .
My colleague: Miss Alisah, Mr Nick, Mr Mike, Miss Yanlong, Mr Steve, Mr Calvin , Miss Yvonne , Derrick, Melvin,Terrence, Jonathan, Luqman, Bahree, Shi Yong, Sayyid, Lennard

Friends: Eugene Butt-dy, Kevin, Leonard, Joel, Faiz twinny , Muhi, Honeybitch, Faidi

All this ppl nvr fails to motivate me , Never once stop believing in me .
Never once give up on me and this really means alot to me .
Like damn lots!!!

So yupp . In short i've been promoted to sales executive!!!!

And yea nowadays i feel like im such a bitch i duno why. haha .
And you're the sweetest thing god can send me!

2010-03-08T00:39:00.004+08:00

Overdue picture from Jason birthday.
Quite not bad lar . Someday boring someday fun . Yupp .
Didn't slept for 48 hours!
Because why?! Chalet was suppose to be a relax and stress free for me bud guess wad i was working like 48 hours so that i can hit my position!
And tat suck ! Bud thankfully i've been promoted!!!
Thanks ppl!! Lots of love!!!

2010-02-27T20:46:00.003+08:00

This is how my face look like alomost everyday.

No fake eyelashes no contact len!
Why? Cause im so so lazy to put tat on .
And contact lens making my eyes have sore eyes.
Irritate the shit out of me.

Yes i know kinda very long long since i really post properly .
Been lazy and not in the blogging mood . So sorry!
Well now since i have a tiny weeny mood to blog so imma gonna blog properly .

Past few days was kinda no mood and pissed!
Pissed with ppl at work pissed with myself pissed with everyone .
Pissed with the fact im only this close to my position and still i can't do it .
Fuck tat shit! Its been goin one month plus ive been fighting for this position .
It'll be great if ppl around me can be upportive .
To those who been supportive THANKS GUYS SO MUCH! LOVE YOU!

*And to Luq! Sorry eh ask you free call but i didn't pick up .
Wasn't in the mood as you can see.
Im so lazy to explain to ppl my current situation like .
So yea sorry!

Just want this to be over .
Once and for all O-V-E-R over!
Okay stop my grumbling of work .
Kinda sick of it already!

Well yesterday was suppose to be kevin date to his class bbq bud sadly i was working till quite late so i can't!
So sad! Sorry!
Tomorrow goin skating with josh kevin peppy bud look like i have to cancel cause i gotta work and not one work is 2 man! I got no time for them siol! So sorry guys!
I promise i make time for you guys one day!
I PROMISE!!

Tomorrow goin chalet.
So yupp!

Anyway if you guys wanna asked me out do tell me in advance cause im mostly very busy.
So yea sorry for the inconvenices!

*Buddy if you see this IMY!
And stop dissapearing again . Thank you!
Love you!

2010-02-23T19:22:00.002+08:00

Miss me? I know!
Sorry for not not updating my blog .
Work work work!!
Busy busy busy!
Sorry sorry sorry!

Will update when im free .
And com crashed!

2010-02-15T01:51:00.002+08:00

Nowadays i feel like a woman trap in an old ladies body.

My feet feel so rotten .

My face feel so dry old wrinkled!

Hate that when it happened!

I feel so ugly!!!

No make up on face nowadays!

Pimple poking out like nobody business!!

Eww i feel so disgusted!

Anyway work was really really very busy .

First time since i work there i saw lots of ppl qeueing outside just to eat thai food!

Awesome siol . Time fly damn fast and since today is VALENTINE day cum CNY,

I saw lots of couple holding flowers and i damn jealous!

I want FLOWER TOO!

ANYONE WAN BUY FOR ME?

Doubt anyone will buy me flower .

Bud oh well not my time yet i guesss.

Bud one colleague of my was so sweet to give me chocalete on V-day!
Thanks john! And my manager give us hongbao!!

Yay! I tink i'm loving my workplace more siol!

Love the environment, the people the everything!

Tomorrow my off day bud sadly gotta meet miss alisah for something .

Sad thought can sleep longer and go jogging bud oh well not my time yet . lol

2010-02-15T01:35:00.002+08:00

Honeybitch and pengpeng surprised me by buying cake on my belated birthday!

Was really surprised cause didn't expect them to buy and celebrate with me .

Awww! You guys are awesome!! Love you guys to the maxx!!! muack muack!!!

Honeybitch, yes i know nowadays my blog dun really blog bout you guys so much .

And tat mostly bout work or buddy or kevin them .

Yes my bad for not blogging bout you guys .

Im sorry . Sometime it just slip my mind .

Just been so busy with lots of stuff.

Sometime i get very annoyed whenever you say "everything also eugene eugene eugene"

And like saying i dun care bout you guys no more .

Yes i know you're joking whenever you say this bud sometime too much of the same joke gets me so annoyed. So yupp . Really hope you understand .

You know though i dun usually contact you bud you know i still tink and care for you alright .

Wait let my stuff everything stable and settle den thing will get back to normal alright .

You know i love you can le . Love you!!!

2010-02-15T00:56:00.003+08:00

This lady here wait for me to knock out from work almost evryday whenever she's working.

Sweet right .. Usually at times she need to wait like more den half an hour .

Feel so bad bud need to do all the cleaning so yupp .

Den i accompany her to cck to take her bag .

After accompany peng to CCK went to sembawang Park cause got gathering .

Sadly no bus anymore .

Wad did i do? Hail for a cab .

Uncle cab was nice and friendly.

Aunties uncles childhody were all there!

Good thing my sis bought along the guitar!

Play cards, guitar and talk shit!

First bus went back cause later gotta work!

2010-02-13T01:06:00.005+08:00

Went for appointment just now .

And head to CCK to find jon to get the sales receipt book.

Den head down to AMK to find buddy and kevin them .

So long nvr see them excluding buddy himself .

They went skating .

And guess wad i found another thing im interested in .

Which is skate boarding! Damn it damn fun lar .

Hilariously buddy was so obsessed with playing cards and me not too so decided to play skate board in my skirt and office wear . Heels are remove definitely!

Damn freaking fun .

Goin to get one skate board for myself at the end of this month! Yes!

And kevin i can go skate with you siol!!!

Obviously buddy dun encourage me to take up tat hobby cause i may break some bone! heh!

Present that mummy bought me .

Its a teddy Bear as usual and $$ of course . lol

Love you mummy!!

Message written from her to me !